Current mood:	thoughtful
Current music:	falling slowly-Glen Hansard & Marketa Irglova

it's been awhile
so lately i've been totally nostalgic for tv of old and i really think tv used to be so much better. like there is good stuff these days but there was great stuff back then. granted it was cheesy and stuff but i loved it. sadly it started with me getting into soaps again. man i used to be all about the soaps when i was younger and ever since i swear i saw that guy from one life to live in the airport i've been watching oltl again and dude marty is back. and then night shift has jagger, aka, antonio sabato jr. whom i adored when i was younger and they would play his theme song every time he came on which was hilarious. that chris issac song, lol. so then i started watching clips of old daytime, holy crap soaps used to be so good. and then i just started randomly started you tubing shows, umm, young riders anyone. and it's on dvd which i'm thinking i'm going to have to buy. so yeah i'm totally reliving my childhood through tv. i mean i just finished lois and clark for crying out loud.

i bought the x files which i have watched but never in order and i'm actually surprised at how much they hint at the possibility of mulder/scully so early one. like yeah one day they are going to hook up, i'm so getting that vibe, which i know they do eventually but i didn't think it would be so obvious the first few eps. they probably had to do it though cause it's a good way to get people into it. it's good though but some do scare me i'm not going to lie.

i turn 24 in a few days which is just crazy. 24, i just dang, can't get over that. which could be why i'm so nostalgic lately, but i don't know. i wish i was doing something better with my life but it's really just another day now. though i do get to find out if i'm going to be an aunt to nephew number two or a niece. i'm hoping for the latter. though i'll take either. my nephew adores me by the way and i'm not trying to be conceited or anything but we have a really good relationship and thats pretty awesome.

i really don't want to live in oregon anymore but i don't know where i want to live. i'm probably going back home next month, like to where i grew up and i wonder if i could live there again. i have missed it and it will be cool to see the place again. it's just i'm at this point where i feel like i don't belong anywhere and it sucks. i should have my aa, finally, at the end of the year too but that dumbass teacher who gave me the undeserving f has yet to get back to me so thats still up in the air. it's just all so lame.

my mom turns 50 the day after my bday, how crazy is that. we are trying to plan some surprises for her, it's so hard cause she is hard to surprise. i got her a little something too but i need to get her something else i just don't know what. i think it will be a good day though.

i'm thinking of getting a tivo. i just really need to get out of this whole recording on vhs tapes thing. it seems so primitive, lol.