dare you to move

I got a new car

Thu, 17 Sep 2009 05:24:17 GMT

and it's kind of weird because I've had my beetle forever. It was my first car, I had it for six years and it was just freaking adorable. My new one is pretty kick ass though, it has a moon roof and a navigation system, satellite radio, all sorts of stuff. I have to go back in just to be taught how to use some of it. oh and I turn 25 tomorrow, crazy.

oh dad

Fri, 31 Jul 2009 04:38:19 GMT

my bro called me awhile ago, scared the crap out of me cause I think there was something wrong. said he was talking to me dad, who I don't talk to and he said something weird. turns out my dad loves me. thats the weird thing. my dad never says that, he's never said it to me, and he hardly says it and damn if it's not nice to know. I would love to hear it myself though, perhaps on one of the oh so pleasant voicemails he leaves me. and i'm sorry would be pretty cool to hear too. still though, my dad loves me and it really honestly truly is good to know.

went for a drive

Wed, 03 Jun 2009 23:28:54 GMT

and am now in salem visiting with the fam, my aunt and my grammie. pretty soon we are heading over to portland to see tyler hilton. i'm so stoked. i haven't seen him since like dec of 2006 and i used to go see him at least twice a year so i'm very excited. and tomorrow bryan greenberg is going to be playing so it shall be excellent.

oh and i can not stop listening to the glee version of don't stop believin'. it's just a must anytime there is music.

oh amazon

Sat, 11 Apr 2009 01:10:33 GMT

i love amazon.com. it makes me want to buy things i probably shouldn't cause it seems like such a good deal. and then i do end up buying them but i really want the stuff so whatever. by the way i have way way way too many tv shows on dvd, it's bad but i can't help it. i had to rearrange my whole room because my dvd collection has gotten too massive. oh well, you have to collect something right.

it's been a long time

Fri, 10 Apr 2009 05:47:25 GMT

some random things

-watching harper's island, one of the guys looks way familiar, totally met him at a bowl-a-thon once, he's ridiculously adorable
-i'm most likely moving to portland, soon hopefully
-saw wicked a couple weeks ago and am totally obsessed, will probably go again next month in SF and in september in Seattle
-rent in June, yay
-went to Cali in feb for a visit, took my mom, went to all the places i used to live, saw a play good times
-saw Mark Ballas and his american idol gf at the grove while in Cali
-Been totally getting into soaps again lately, especially old school stuff, like Jack and Jennifer from Days
-That play I saw in LA, Matthew Ashford was in it, aka Jack from Days, it was awesome
-I've been reading alot more lately, totally missed reading
-saw fast and furious, oh paul walker how i've missed you, loved him for so long used to call him the deedle before i even knew his name
-when i'm not working i'm watching children, love my nephews but a one year old and a two month old at once, it's hard sometimes
-got a sweet new futon, thus more incentive to move soon
-not to mention i really am getting sick of this town
-got ovens at work now, sandwich crazyness, not one really knows how to handle it quite yet it's kind of funny
-friends still owns my heart, been watching it alot lately still cracks me up
-i didn't go to wilmington this year which was really quite sad, i mean it's been a five year tradition, oh well, i'll got back at some point i'm sure
-it's lacrosse season and it's still cold so games are not so fun, not to mention i feel like i'm bad luck for the little bro but whatever
-i need to go on vacation somewhere, i'm bored
-i really want to go back to school, which is dorky but very true

anyhoo, thats enough randomness for now, just thought it's been too long

nathan drew pardo

Thu, 29 Jan 2009 07:42:54 GMT

my new nephew, born just a few hours ago, he's adorable and so tiny. i've already decided him and cooper will have a little rap group, and their names will be coop cash and nate d. so exciting for my bro and his wife.

Sat, 24 Jan 2009 06:57:23 GMT

so it's been a long ass time but i've always attempted not to drink alone and i guess technically for tonight i did for awhile. but i got home where i live with my fucking parentals again which i used to not and i did and dude i hate being judged. not that they totally did but tell me to go to sleep, i'm freaking 24 years old and i'll drink as much as i want and dude, i'm over this. i want my old life back so bad it's ridiculous and i can not freaking wait til i go back to cali next month. i miss it so bad, i miss what i had and a change is coming damn it, i got my AA, that's what i came to bend for and i promise i am leaving soon.

amusing

Thu, 04 Dec 2008 08:27:10 GMT

On the twelfth day of Christmas, amberlamps sent to me...

Twelve random cds drumming

Eleven gilmore girls piping

Ten movies a-leaping

Nine mochas bowling

Eight sluks a-filmmaking

Seven alias a-talking

Six skins a-coupling

Five cu-u-u-urtis peoples

Four ryan reynolds

Three jamie davis

Two rachel mcadams

...and a roswell in a noah/allie.

finally!!

Mon, 01 Dec 2008 21:22:16 GMT

so this summer i took this class that i was totally passing and then randomly got an F in and i was like wtf. So finally today after months the teacher checked the grade and was like oh yeah oops, you got an A. seriously, it took this long but dude thank goodness. now after this semester i'm finally done with my AA. holy shit. it took forever but i'm still happy. now the next step is where to next and it seems that most signs are pointing to portland. i'd love to go back to cali i would but i just don't think i can right now. but portland, i think i could like it there.

dang

Sun, 30 Nov 2008 00:33:40 GMT

so catherine hardwicke is going to be in the town right over tonight for a special screening of twilight and a q and a after but i can't go cause it's sold out. i'm kind of bummed cause it would definitely be interesting to hear about some of her choices. i do however plan on trying to extra for new moon since it will most likely be filmed partly here too. still kicking myself for not going to the open casting call for twilight.

saw australia last night. hugh jackman very much earned his sexiest man alive honor.

holy crap

Sun, 16 Nov 2008 05:38:10 GMT

i just worked a twelve hour day and i am so tired. thank goodness i'm off tomorrow.

so i'm off

Thu, 16 Oct 2008 18:37:03 GMT

to cali, back home where i grew up in fact, so excited. good times i'm sure.

no day but today

Thu, 25 Sep 2008 05:03:42 GMT

i just got back from the filmed version of the last performance of rent and it was fabulous and made me cry and made me wish i saw it live but at least i got to see it and it was just amazing. so sad it's not longer on broadway, but the guy that played mark, Adam Kantor, was awesome. needless to say i will definitely be on a rent high for awhile i'm sure.

24

Thu, 18 Sep 2008 05:50:50 GMT

so i'm really getting older, i mean whoa 24 and i'm not saying it like i'm so freaking old but i just, i guess i thought i'd be in a different place right now. i thought i'd be doing something more or living somewhere else. i'm not fully hating on my life or anything but i do want change. and this year i really want to do something about it.

by the way, i'm going to be an aunt to nephew number 2. i swear i'm in a family destined to have only boys. oh well, i don't know what to do with little girls anyway.

it's been awhile

Mon, 15 Sep 2008 02:25:00 GMT

so lately i've been totally nostalgic for tv of old and i really think tv used to be so much better. like there is good stuff these days but there was great stuff back then. granted it was cheesy and stuff but i loved it. sadly it started with me getting into soaps again. man i used to be all about the soaps when i was younger and ever since i swear i saw that guy from one life to live in the airport i've been watching oltl again and dude marty is back. and then night shift has jagger, aka, antonio sabato jr. whom i adored when i was younger and they would play his theme song every time he came on which was hilarious. that chris issac song, lol. so then i started watching clips of old daytime, holy crap soaps used to be so good. and then i just started randomly started you tubing shows, umm, young riders anyone. and it's on dvd which i'm thinking i'm going to have to buy. so yeah i'm totally reliving my childhood through tv. i mean i just finished lois and clark for crying out loud.

i bought the x files which i have watched but never in order and i'm actually surprised at how much they hint at the possibility of mulder/scully so early one. like yeah one day they are going to hook up, i'm so getting that vibe, which i know they do eventually but i didn't think it would be so obvious the first few eps. they probably had to do it though cause it's a good way to get people into it. it's good though but some do scare me i'm not going to lie.

i turn 24 in a few days which is just crazy. 24, i just dang, can't get over that. which could be why i'm so nostalgic lately, but i don't know. i wish i was doing something better with my life but it's really just another day now. though i do get to find out if i'm going to be an aunt to nephew number two or a niece. i'm hoping for the latter. though i'll take either. my nephew adores me by the way and i'm not trying to be conceited or anything but we have a really good relationship and thats pretty awesome.

i really don't want to live in oregon anymore but i don't know where i want to live. i'm probably going back home next month, like to where i grew up and i wonder if i could live there again. i have missed it and it will be cool to see the place again. it's just i'm at this point where i feel like i don't belong anywhere and it sucks. i should have my aa, finally, at the end of the year too but that dumbass teacher who gave me the undeserving f has yet to get back to me so thats still up in the air. it's just all so lame.

my mom turns 50 the day after my bday, how crazy is that. we are trying to plan some surprises for her, it's so hard cause she is hard to surprise. i got her a little something too but i need to get her something else i just don't know what. i think it will be a good day though.

i'm thinking of getting a tivo. i just really need to get out of this whole recording on vhs tapes thing. it seems so primitive, lol.

so random

Sat, 23 Aug 2008 04:28:19 GMT

but i'm in the top friends of the friday night lights myspace page that they use to get extras and stuff. just thought it was kind of funny.

today kind of sucked, might be going out in a bit though, but i haven't decided.

totally makes no sense

Fri, 22 Aug 2008 18:10:42 GMT

so some how i got an f in the class i took over the summer when without the final project i turned in i had an a and i never was told what i got on the project but even if i epically failed on it there is no way i would get an f. it just pisses me off cause it's not right and of course the teacher is out of the country right now so i can't fix it. and i have never ever failed a class in my life so seeing it on my final grades and it gave me an academic warning. it's such bullshit.

i hate alchohol

Thu, 21 Aug 2008 05:45:24 GMT

but not really, though it makes you realize that you truly are not happy where you are and all of your friends that you've made out here where you are trying to temporarily be happy have moved away to the place that you were happy in and now it sucks. bend was cool when i had my friends but they have all moved to cali and the whole crying thing has officially hit me. i miss them, i miss my old friends and i miss the life i had. and i really really want it back. next year i so want to be gone from here and i really hope i will be.

people should tip beck tickets more often

Sun, 17 Aug 2008 00:36:43 GMT

not that i'm a huge fan or anything but thats like an 80 dollar tip and pretty freaking cool.

my friends going away party is tonight, she's pretty much the person i hang out with the most out here and now shes moving and it's going to suck. back to the friendless zone. i really really want to move back to cali.

work is ridiculously stressful right now. so much effing drama.

anyway i should make my bed before i head out.

my little brother wants to talk to me

Wed, 13 Aug 2008 02:20:03 GMT

which to some might not sound so odd but i'm talking one i haven't talked to since my brothers wedding, which i was nineteen at. it's just so weird, i have such a crazy relationship with out dad that i don't know if it's possible to just have one with my bro. but i'd like to try, i'm just kind of nervous is all.

going to see tropic thunder in a few. should be interesting. it's my whole getting teenagers into the midnight show thing. not really but i take my other bro and his friends so i have to buy all the tickets and i feel like a dork.

matthew is still coming in to work, fox that is if you were wondering. i haven't seen him recently but he comes in at least three times a week or so. though he told someone he had to work this weekend, on what who knows but we just thought it was funny cause they asked if he was doing anything fun and he said no he had to work. it's kind of nothing to us now, just another regular, but still cool that he's a regular at ours. he's building a house in town, so i'm sure we'll see more of him on other breaks as well.

finally finished

Mon, 04 Aug 2008 04:11:12 GMT

so i'm done with breaking dawn, later then i intended cause i ended up having to go to work. more thoughts later because i'm finally going to catch up on some much needed sleep. one random thing though, i totally dug garrett.

matthew fox watch summer '08

Sat, 26 Jul 2008 01:13:41 GMT

so basically it has become my new hobby or something to bask in the delight of our semi regular matthew fox and i got to help him today, lol. he's very beautiful in person and i think he's very polite. he held the door open for some people which i thought was sweet. he's also quite tall. he is not a tipper though, which does not bother me but bothers others. i'm just like, i don't care, you're awesome. but i never work in the front, i'm usually on drive-thru, so it was crazy i actually helped him. but it's cute he comes in with his brother and they get coffee and a pastry. my old manager also told him he was so good in a movie, i'm guessing vantage point, she was in front of him in line, and he was like oh, thanks. it was funny we were all like oh my gosh she did not just do that, lol. this is his second time this week coming in. i'm not sure how long he will be in town but as far as i can tell it's going on at least 3 weeks now. oh well, i finally got to "talk" to him, so he can never come in again and i'd be cool with that.

in other news i took joey, my little bro, and his friend to see step brother last night at midnight. which when i think about it wasn't the smartest plan since i worked at six today. anyhoo we get there and a bunch of kids he knew needed tickets so i ended up having to basically go the the movie with like nine 16 year old boys. good times. it was funny though, better then i expected.

i've been kind of blah lately, just not feeling anything and i really want to lose some weight, cause i am just not where i used to be. so i'm off tomorrow and i'm going to do something outgoing and i might go see x files cause i have this mulder craving going on. i just want to see him and i'm not even that big of a fan.

totally just hit me

Thu, 24 Jul 2008 02:28:20 GMT

i very much all of a sudden miss cali, like hardcore. it comes in spurts usually, but right now i just really want to be home. how sad here over a year and i still can't call it home. going out with my coworkers tonight and i just realized everyone i hang out with is moving in like a month, awesome. it all just makes me sad.

so matthew fox is a drip coffee kind of guy

Wed, 16 Jul 2008 00:15:00 GMT

it appears matthew went along with my plan for him not to come in my store again til i was there because he came in today and i finally got to see him. of course i was working drive so there was no interaction whatsoever but i did get to see him and i cleaned up his mess before my break, lol. he sat in the lobby and had a pastry and left a few crumbs for me to wipe up. but yeah i guess he's just a plain coffee kind of guy. very nice looking though and extremely tall. i get mad at my coworkers when he comes in though cause they say his name loud sometimes and i'm like dude, act cool now, react later. no one recognized him right away but i looked up and was like holy crap, he does come in. very cool, glad i finally got to see him. i've loved him since party of five and he is like the ultimate cryer for me. he cries, i cry, it's just how it is.

i wish i could think of something to say

Tue, 08 Jul 2008 22:12:11 GMT

something to try and grasp the situation. nash's father was found dead. they are currently looking into what the cause of his death was. if it was an accident, murder, suicide, who knows. these kids are 16 and their lives are forever changed. it's all over the news and the papers and it's just horrible. joey is there now, if there is one thing i can say about this group of friends is they are fiercely loyal. banding together and just being there for each other. i'm so sad for brooke, nash's twin sister, she is still in europe somewhere, i'm sure heading back somehow but i can't even imagine. i didn't know their dad very well but he was a good guy the few times i met him. very funny we joked around a bit. and just knowing that i knew him and the circumstances of the situation, it's just so scary and tragic. stuff like this happening, to someone i knew, right where i live, it just goes to show what a scary place the world we live in truly is. thanks to everyone that commented on my last post, it was very sweet of you. and for the record joey is okay right now, at least he seems to be doing alright, he has to be strong, for his friend.